Noah James Thackrah
Whew! The last few days have been a complete whirl-wind. But, even though I may be a bit blurry-eyed and mentally hazy, I thought I would attempt to update this blog with the completely wonderful news that we have a brand new baby boy in our home! Noah James Thackrah (that will become official later) was born on Sunday, May 22, 2011, in Phoenix, Arizona. Many have emailed or sent Shawna and I messages on Facebook asking how this went down – so here it goes:
May 23, 2011: It was like any other Monday – waking up thinking about the tasks of what needed to be completed at work, showering and heading in to the office to complete these tasks. Around 12:45 I got a call from Shawna asking me if I had heard a message we received from our adoption specialist. I told her that I hadn’t. Well, Shawna had just gotten off the phone with Summer (our AS) and we were presented an adoption scenario. My heart began to race, just a tad. Shawna, who was at her customary Monday afternoon Starbucks locale, said she was coming over to my office so we could call Summer back together.
Summer did indeed call us back and presented the situation to us. A baby boy had been born on Sunday. Without getting into the details here, I will say that the situation wasn’t exactly pristine or from the land of fairy-tales. But, our take on it was that God allowed us to be called, so we would continue down the road until he put up a road block. So we agreed to be “presented” to the birth mother, and our agency showed her our Match Letter, along with a few other Match Letters from other couples in the agency.
A couple hours passed and then we received the phone call that would change our lives forever – the birth mom had selected us from our Match Letter and wanted to meet us. Gulp. We got into our vehicle and made the 40 minute drive from our home in Queen Creek to downtown Phoenix. That was an interesting ride filled with prayer for God’s direction and that he would also give us discernment. We had heard about Match Meetings from others and we new they could be incredibly awkward at best. Well we arrived at St. Joe’s in Phoenix and were greeted by the Case Worker – she filled us in a bit with the situation and we within minutes were sitting in a room with the birth mother, two of her daughters and this 1 day old infant, that we found out she was calling, Noah. We had a brief but open meeting and honestly, when we left the room, I had no idea what the birth mother was thinking. Would she want to meet another couple?
We got in our car to head home. Shawna was feeling a bit more optimistic than me. As we were driving our phone rang. It was our the Case Worker notifying us that the birth mother wanted us to adopt her baby. Joy, happiness, panic, fear and a numbness all hit at once. Could this really be happening? We had heard stories that we could be in the Match Book for a year or more (we were in there for a month or so). We were instructed to show up at the hospital at 1:00 the next day to pick up our son. Crazy. Not a lot of sleep that night.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011: I think both Shawna & I wouldn’t have been surprised to get a phone call from our agency telling us that the birth mom had changed her mind. We were guarding our hearts for sure. Well, that call never came. So, we loaded up the car seat (that story could be an illustration in a sermon one day) and began to head to the hospital. When we arrived, we met with another Case Worker briefly and were escorted into an empty hospital room, where the acting Ped/Dr. wanted to speak to us. Gulp. Was something wrong? Nope, he wanted to notify us that they were going to do a couple of precautionary tests to ensure they weren’t releasing the infant to us prematurely.
Side Bar: Shawna and I had picked out names for a boy and a girl, not knowing which would come to us. For the boy, we picked out Joseph Paul. When we met with the birth mom and she told us that she was calling him Noah, both Shawna and I loved the name. Later that night we decided that if we indeed get the chance to bring him home we would call him Noah. Firstly, because we liked the name and secondly because we wanted to tell him one day that his birth mom had chosen the name. Our hope is that would give him a connection to her in some way.
Holding Noah in our Arms
After we met with the Dr. our case worker went in to see the birth mother to see if she was ready to give us the baby. Our hearts were breaking for this woman. We prayed for her and that God would reveal himself to her. After 20 minutes or so, the case worker was back telling us the birth mom was ready to see us. Surreal would be the only English word I know of that would set the mood for this scene. As we walked into her room, the birth mom was sitting on her bed with Noah. It was obvious that she had been crying and that she was struggling. Not knowing if we would ever see this woman again, Shawna asked if we could take a picture with her and Noah. She agreed. After that picture was taken, in one of the most painful and selfless acts I have ever witnessed, the birth mom handed Noah to me. Instinctively, I reached out for Noah, our son, and paused at the bed side to tell the birth mom that we would always be praying for her. After I said those words, I slowly turned and stepped into the hallway, waiting for her to say, wait, I’ve changed my mind. Those words didn’t come. I would have completely understood and honored that request if it did come, but there was nothing. Only the beating of my heart and this little 6 lb. 13 oz baby boy in my arms.
Shawna remained in the room for another minute, kneeling down to hug the birth mom and whispering in her ear that we loved her and that we would always pray for her. Heartbreaking and powerfully exciting moments, all wrapped up into the same moment of time.
After settling into another empty hospital room with our new son, we waited for the medical testing that needed to occur. After about 4 hours, we were told that we would be released, with our son getting a clean bill of health. Those moments in that hospital room and waiting for the testing to be completed will be moments I never forget. My heart began to bond to this baby boy; I began to be his father and Shawna began to be his mother. Surreal, again is the only word.
Leaving the Hospital
As we walked out (Shawna was wheeled out) to our vehicle with this baby called Noah, we knew our lives would never be the same. We were thankful for God’s providence and grace. We were now parents. The rest of the story is yet to be written, but we know that God will write it and that we will seek to trust Him in it. We thank God for Noah James Thackrah and we both are looking forward to getting know him and train him up in the way he should go. Please pray for us and his birth mom.